In the “third week” of the Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius, we are asked to look into the heart and mind of Jesus during his last days, to have compassion for him (to be “with him in his passion”) and feel as if he might have felt with his world collapsing around him. We are asked to remember three things: that he was fully human in his suffering, that he could have retreated into his divine nature but didn’t, and that he did all this for us.
In the coming days I will share some of my imaginings, contemplative glimpses into the story of Christ’s passion that are meant only to pull you further into the story and draw you closer to Christ. We begin with preparations. In Luke 22:1-13, Jesus and his disciples prepare for Passover and Judas Iscariot makes plans for his betrayal. And we ask ourselves, how might have Jesus felt?
I know the end is coming. I know my followers are faltering and one has even crossed over to the side of those who want me dead. This makes me sad, but I know it’s all part of the Father’s will. If it were not Judas it would just be someone else. But it is Judas, has always been Judas. From the day I called him, he has been moving toward this. I love him deeply, despite what he’s about to do.
So I know what’s coming, can sense what’s about to happen, and I know I need to fortify myself with the ritual of Passover, which carries with it both ancient memory and a new meaning and purpose. This is a new form of worship, an offering of my body and blood, a thanksgiving celebration that will go forward from this day, giving strength and sustenance to all who share in it.
And yet, this is my body that we’re talking about, my passion, suffering and death. There’s no other way around this. Not even my divinity, my connection to my Father, can take a way the pain of being a man facing death. I am afraid of what this will do to my friends, afraid they won’t be able to take it all, afraid that the work and way we have started will cease.
So I am unsure, but I know somehow that there is strength in this meal, this time around the table with my friends. Let’s begin.
Ask yourself in silence: What is this meal, this “last supper” to you?
thank you for recalling the exercises for me. I have been remiss lately struggling with other matters that delay my growth!
Steve…Please pray for Joseph Zwicker’s soul…We lost him on4-4-14 to Multiple Myeloma. I too need prayers….Dotty
In our suffering too, it is in the company of family and friends, around the “table” that we draw our comfort and strength. Jesus has set the example for us . . .we need this reminder of the flesh and blood man who gave us life! What a blessing to be part of His family! Thanks Steve, looking forward to more! Have missed you! Kathleen
Glad to be your reminder, Jan.
Sorry to hear, Dotty. You have my prayers for Joseph during these holy days.
Thanks, Kathleen.